life...

Looking out of the window,

as the sun slowly hides beneath the horizon,

the darkness creeps and crawls its way

upon the land;

 

i have been waiting for years,

haunted by memories,

going round and round,

in this vicious circle of life;

 

as the music fades away,

i look around to spot any familiar faces,

it seems i am here all alone,

trying to make sense of this crazy thing called life;

 

how long does it take?

to solve this puzzle called life?

how much more longer,

if only i knew!

 

like a bird in a cage,

as i sit and stare into another day,

its getting harder and harder,

to be in control yet feel helpless;

 

yet, i have been waiting for years,

it made no sense,

maybe this is what my life is?

 

as i look into an unknown horizon,

the promise of a happy ending tempts me back,

and i choose to survive

to have another go at this thing called Life!

 

 

 

why

“Why?”

Why do you keep going on like everything's okay?

Treating me the way you do like it's a normal day.

I am confused of who you are, and who I am to you,

I'm scared that you will never know who I have grown into.

I can't explain the reasons why you hate me now and then,

And why you've never let me live my life as just your friend.

The chances are forbidden that I ever could be right,

‘Cause I'm always wrong in your eyes, you change like day &  night.

And when you say those evil lies, my heart would start to melt,

It hurts that you have never cared or listened to how I felt.

But throughout all this chaos I have learned a valuable lesson,

That even if you know you're wrong, you'll never give confession.

So now that i have two kids of my own,

 I can show them a love that you have never shown.

Instead you showed me hate that I know I cannot forget,

So I will show my kids a love that I will not regret.

"dead"

“Dead”

What happens when you feel dead inside?
Do curl up in a ball and hide?
Do you simply let the tears fall,
Or never cry at all?
Do you make some scars,
Tear some papers apart.
Look down from a cliff,
Shoulders and neck all stiff.
Do you cry out their name?
Hoping it would end, this game?
Do you think about suicide?
And then just let the thought abide,
Next to your bedside.
It sits there all night,
Watching you sleep until the morning light.

huh?

No More Locked Doors

Everyday we pass through doors
Whether they're open or locked, the decision is yours
When you choose to slip up, that decision is gone
How long they're locked depends on what you've done.

Now you sit, staring, at the locked doors all around
The thoughts in your mind beating your soul to the ground
That time has now come to put change in your ways
Stop living your life in some substance-induced haze.

The time will soon come to unlock the door
From then on set your goals to always want more
If it's the negative road and wrong choices you make
Someday, real soon, your life, those drugs WILL take.

So when you hold in your hand the key to your door
Don't be that guy face down on the floor
For EVERYONE has the potential to be great
Just like the doors, you hold the key to your fate.