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"invisible"

today i wish i were invisible, to hide from all the heartache and darkness that has recently seemed to consume my world. Why do i have these thoughts? i'm not exactly sure, but i know that they'e been deep inside my phsyche for quite sometime just waiting to surface. It seems that all i do to make the feelings disappear is totally in vain. today i just want to be home. i should be joyfull, today marks thirty days without the substances that may harm myself or my F/family, instead i feel myself wanting to leave this place. i want to run away, to hide for weeks or months from everyone and everything that i hold dear. i ask myself time and time again, what's wrong with you? Why can you not overcome this monster that lies within? Why can't you be strong like before? Before what? Why have you allowed this addiction to take over your mind and body, allowed it to be your wicked new Master, and pushed all those you love and cherish aside? Yes today i want to be invisible, if only that were possible. i'm still here, i'm sorry. i love Y/you all with all that i am, be well and know that soon i will be home and "me" again.